time: 2.12am
mood: stressful
awak suka buat macam ni kan? awak biar saya sorang sorang. awak off hp. awak biar saya tertunggu dalam hujan. awak buat saya merayu dekat kawan awak. awak malu kan saya dekat kawan awak. awak biar kan saya terkapai kapai sorang diri. tapi bila awak paksa saya buat sesuatu benda yang awak nak, saya buat kan? walaupun saya terpaksa, saya tetap buat. tak boleh ke kalau awak buat apa yang saya yang suruh? dulu awak kata bila bercinta, kita kena give-and-take. tapi sekarang saya tak tahu mana perginya give-and-take awak tu. awak ingat saya tak ada perasaan ke? saya nak exam la. boleh tak jangan tinggal kan semua tekanan tu kat saya? saya sayang awak la, mukhlis. awak kawan baik saya, awak kekasih saya. kasih sayang saya dekat awak tak pernah hilang sikit pun. tapi saya tengok, makin lama awak macam dah tak ada sayang dekat saya. awak dah tak macam dulu. awak bukan mukhlis yang saya kenal dulu. awak dah tak ambil berat pasal saya. awak dah tak berminat nak bercakap dengan saya. awak dah tak berminat nak dengar saya mengarut. saya dah nampak sangat perubahan awak, mukh.
minta maaf.
yes, i know, it will always be me.
my perpetual savior.
2 comments:
I know, I'm nobody.. who am I to say this, but I've had enough to see you killing yourself, my friend.
YOU. I repeat, YOU need to RESPECT yourself nad.
TREAT yourself right.
BE FAIR to yourself nad.
When was the last time you DEVOTED you to yourself? To your own life? To your own world?
If you can't do that to yourself, what do you expect from others? Especially from HIM?
I've been there nad. I'm saying this because I understand you and I feel you. And yes, I'm worried about you. Thought I could talk to you when I dropped by to Mel's last time. But I was so sad to see you. And I'm pretty sure you have heard this quote before,
"If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be but if they don't they never were"
I took the risk nad. I even put my life on risk because I really lost my mind but it's worth it.
Just remember, BE FAIR to yourself. Jangan lupa Tuhan, jangan lupa famili you pun ada. JANGAN LUPA Tuhan yang bagi you HIDUP, nadiah. Bukan Mukhlis.
You.. jangan sampai i buat you rasa nyawa kat hujung tanduk baru you rasa how precious kehidupan yang Allah dah bagi dekat you free free selama nih. He is not everything to you because he is NOTHING special nad. And memories are meant to be remembered. Not to live inside it.
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